Wonderfull Weekend.

I must have gotten around 45 hours at work last week. That puts it at around $526 before the government gets there share. After work on Friday we went to the mermaid, bar right next to work. By we i mean a few of my coworkers a a boos or 3. I ended up taking off my shirt and showing off my "we are everywhere" tank that also have a picture of a rainbow on it. Like they don't think I'm gay already. But i had a lot of fun, so its all good.

On Sunday Justin, Timmy (my bro), and Sara (Tim's Girl) we all went to the Mall of America. Here's the catch thou. I went Dressed as a girl, or at least half way. I was waring Guys camo pants, Pink tank with a brown tank over it, and of course my new bra with my boobs. We had so much fun. You wouldn't believe how many looks i got. I was expecting to get looks but WOW. Not many people gave me a condescending look... it was mostly a "what the" or "oook..." kind of look. It was really cute when little kids noticed and asked there parents about it. There was this one little girl who just yelled "mommy mommy that man has boobs" We all just broke out laughing. it was so funny.

We were walking on the main level and there was these two guys walking toward us. One of them looks at me but just keeps walking. I hear someone behind me say "what the?". I turn around and both of those guys had stoped dead in there tracks staring right at me. So i give them a wink and a wave and keep on walking.

Hot Topic and Spencer's Gifts were some the better stores to visit. I was talking to two guys who worked at the Topic for a little bit. One of them, Jeff was his name, after a minute of talking to him he started flirting with me and gave me his phone number. I'm not gay, but i am Bi. So i might give him a call, but I'm a little scared to meet up with someone i don't know. Any Advise anyone?


Sara had brought her camera but we didn't get any pictures... perhaps next time. And there will defently be a next time.

Busy work week.

Well its been a busy week at work this week.... not over yet thou. I still have roughly 12 hours of work left. Do that will put it at around 5 hours Over Time for the week.

Well I told Lupe (friend and coworker) about who i really am. She accepted me so that's real nice. She wants to go shopping with me sometime. I don't think I'm ready for that thou.

This weekend might prove to be fun. My bro, his girl friend and myself are going to head up to MOA on Sunday. Should be really fun

thats all for now... i'm running late

Comming out update

Well its been an interesting couple of days for me. I have decided that it was time that I come out to my friends about my transgender or rather my female self. I had already talked to Amber at work about it. Shes a really nice girl and offered some advise about how to go about it. I decided that Friday after work would be the best time to talk to Matt about it. After work I waited in the parking lot. When he came out I told him everything. It went a lot better then i thought it would. He's still my best friend. After talking with him went got some food, sat in front of a bone fire for awhile and then went driving till like 4 in the morning. It was a lot of fun. Now i just got to go about telling my other friends... We'll see how that goes.

Saturday and Sunday i had a lot of fun. Kellee, one of my Sam's friends spent the whole weekend here. We picked her up on Saturday and went to the Mall. She's a nice person and vary accepting of me. At Hot Topic I got a new skirt and they made me try on these really tight red zebra pants... they were really freaking ugly. After the Mall we proceeded to get some food at Denny's with Andy, one of my friends.

Sunday was a lot of fun. I got to know Kellee a little. Sam, Kellee, and myself are going to try to get into a 3BR apartment sometime soon. We all talked outside... i got a little burnt. Later in the evening we all sat on the couch and watched some TV. Kellee and I ended up cuddling a lot that night. Looking back on it i think it pissed Sam off a little bit. Its not like i mean to "steal" her friend away or anything... and I'm not looking at dating Kellee. I'm just going thou really hard times right now, and having someone to hold and someone holding me just makes everything feel better for a short time. I know Kellee is ether gay or Bi, I'm not sure which. But i think she really likes it when I'm being my more "Female" self. I don't know.

Work today was good for the most part. Its end of quarter which means overtime... and i really could use the extra cash. I'm the first person to get trained into "shipments" so thats kind of cool.

Well thats all for now. Later people.

Holy Crap-

I spoke too soon. Yesterday was one bitch of a day. The FedEx system went down, and i hate dealing with those guys from UPS. But oh well, i got thou it didn't I.

I went shoping yesterday morning, and since I was shopping for a new skirt i thought "hey, might as well ware a bra and my boobs". Not many people noticed. One lady from the thrift store noticed something was up, but i don't think she figured it out. I wasn't able to find a skirt i like thou... so that sucks. Then I went to best buy to drop off my computer. Now I know that the Geek squad guy noticed. I didn't even realize it a first. I was carrying my computer bag with the strap on my left shoulder and the bag on my right.... So the strap was going right between my boobs. He didn't know what to think, it was cute. But anyways I had fun doing it and no one said anything about it.
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another day

Well, Today isn't looking bad so far. So some reason i can't seem to get this shaving my legs down. Below the knee is fine. But once i get into my upper legs, it seems like my skin is really loose and it won't shave hardly at all. Anyone have any ideas? Prehaps i should let it grew and then wax it.

I'm going to head to the thrift store now. I want to see if i can find a good skirt.

Later-

Where to begin? Life have been crazy these past few weeks. With work, my self discoveries, and starting to date again. So lets cover it in that order.

Work:

Work as been O.K. latley. I've been flaking a little bit but i'm starting to come out of it.

Self Discoveries:

gender dysphoria- i know i talked a little about this last time. I still have a lot to learn on the subject and still need a whole lot of time to think about where i fit into it all. But in other news i've decided that its about time that i start telling all my friends. Should i do it all at once? One at a time? Should i tell Christy yet? or is it too soon? I'll tell Matt first and figure it out from there. I just hope i don't loose anyone as a friend.

Dating:
Christy is just amazing i and stop thinking about her. She seems vary open minded so i dont think i have to worry about her looking down at me for who i really am. But i'm going to keep that to myself for a little bit still.

Something new

Well it was another dead end weekend. But i've been doing more research and i've come across something that i feel describes who i am a lot better then the term "transgendered". Its called "gender dysphoria". In my case it basically mean I have a male body, but my mind is not sure which gender it should be. Theirs a lot more to it then that, but i'm still doing my reading and learning on the subject.

Here a picture i took while being board... and no those are not real boobs.

thats all for now, i'll add more when i get home tonight.