Major updating is needed.

Sorry i haven't been around much as of late. I have been shcked into the post nuclear war world of Fallout3. so some updates.

1- decided on a name: Ashley Lynn Snyder (keeping mt last name)
2- Have and appointment to see a therapist on the 16.
3- EVERYONE at work knows and at least seems to be cool with it
4- Kong's last day at work in this Wednesday. I'll miss you buddy!
5- I was Beat up at a mall about 3 weeks ago for being "myself" but
it hasn't got me down any
6- Im single again. Had something going to a bit, but it didnt work out.
I have meet alot of people who just want to have sex with me
(must be the TG thing) but thats not what i really want. Some
days i feel so alone in the world.
7- I got my new hair. its just a clip in, but i like it.

thats all for now. have fun folks

Chashed and Burned: these are the worst days of my life

It was Lupes last day on Friday. We all went up to the Mermaid and had some drinks. I had a great time. There were a lot of people who didn't know i was transgendered who were surprised when they saw me, poor Mary. After most people had left a small group of us went up to Bella (much higher class place). I was sober by the time we left so Kong drove me back to the Maid so i can drive home. I should have had him take me home because just a mile away from home i fell asleep and crashed. Not into another car thank god! I took out a mail box and stop sign, went into a ditch, got airborn, and crashed into a bunch of trees. I'm allright but my car is totaled.
So now i'm dealing with the insurance company. I hope to be sitting in a used Dodge Caliber by sunday.

Back to It.

Well its been a crazy month sorry i haven't been around to tell you about it.

First off i did start hormones, but because a few different reasons i had to stop a week in. But for the most part i live as a women or try to anyways. I don't dress at work but all my bosses know now and support me. All they ask for is a heads up really. so that's cool.

I'm moving back in with my parents in 2 weeks, Oh-joy.

Sam has been a total bitch and i'm sick of her BULL SHIT! Shes moving out this weekend.

Ben spending a lot of time with Justin and Sara, my best friends. Been going to dennys, Mall of America, and just chilling a lot. Sara, your my biggest supporter and best friend thank you so much.

Well i have to be going, got to get ready for work. Have fun all.

Another monday gone by

Well its been a uneventful couple of days to be honest. I'm still alive and kicking so to speak. All most all of my free time has been spent resurching Hormone replacement therapy.
What is it?
What does it do?
What does it not not?
How do i get it?
Is this something that i really want to go thou?
What would my parents think?
Should i tell them before or after?
What about work?
How can i do this without insurance?

This is whats on my mind. I hope to find what i seek soon.

Wonderfull Weekend.

I must have gotten around 45 hours at work last week. That puts it at around $526 before the government gets there share. After work on Friday we went to the mermaid, bar right next to work. By we i mean a few of my coworkers a a boos or 3. I ended up taking off my shirt and showing off my "we are everywhere" tank that also have a picture of a rainbow on it. Like they don't think I'm gay already. But i had a lot of fun, so its all good.

On Sunday Justin, Timmy (my bro), and Sara (Tim's Girl) we all went to the Mall of America. Here's the catch thou. I went Dressed as a girl, or at least half way. I was waring Guys camo pants, Pink tank with a brown tank over it, and of course my new bra with my boobs. We had so much fun. You wouldn't believe how many looks i got. I was expecting to get looks but WOW. Not many people gave me a condescending look... it was mostly a "what the" or "oook..." kind of look. It was really cute when little kids noticed and asked there parents about it. There was this one little girl who just yelled "mommy mommy that man has boobs" We all just broke out laughing. it was so funny.

We were walking on the main level and there was these two guys walking toward us. One of them looks at me but just keeps walking. I hear someone behind me say "what the?". I turn around and both of those guys had stoped dead in there tracks staring right at me. So i give them a wink and a wave and keep on walking.

Hot Topic and Spencer's Gifts were some the better stores to visit. I was talking to two guys who worked at the Topic for a little bit. One of them, Jeff was his name, after a minute of talking to him he started flirting with me and gave me his phone number. I'm not gay, but i am Bi. So i might give him a call, but I'm a little scared to meet up with someone i don't know. Any Advise anyone?


Sara had brought her camera but we didn't get any pictures... perhaps next time. And there will defently be a next time.

Busy work week.

Well its been a busy week at work this week.... not over yet thou. I still have roughly 12 hours of work left. Do that will put it at around 5 hours Over Time for the week.

Well I told Lupe (friend and coworker) about who i really am. She accepted me so that's real nice. She wants to go shopping with me sometime. I don't think I'm ready for that thou.

This weekend might prove to be fun. My bro, his girl friend and myself are going to head up to MOA on Sunday. Should be really fun

thats all for now... i'm running late

Comming out update

Well its been an interesting couple of days for me. I have decided that it was time that I come out to my friends about my transgender or rather my female self. I had already talked to Amber at work about it. Shes a really nice girl and offered some advise about how to go about it. I decided that Friday after work would be the best time to talk to Matt about it. After work I waited in the parking lot. When he came out I told him everything. It went a lot better then i thought it would. He's still my best friend. After talking with him went got some food, sat in front of a bone fire for awhile and then went driving till like 4 in the morning. It was a lot of fun. Now i just got to go about telling my other friends... We'll see how that goes.

Saturday and Sunday i had a lot of fun. Kellee, one of my Sam's friends spent the whole weekend here. We picked her up on Saturday and went to the Mall. She's a nice person and vary accepting of me. At Hot Topic I got a new skirt and they made me try on these really tight red zebra pants... they were really freaking ugly. After the Mall we proceeded to get some food at Denny's with Andy, one of my friends.

Sunday was a lot of fun. I got to know Kellee a little. Sam, Kellee, and myself are going to try to get into a 3BR apartment sometime soon. We all talked outside... i got a little burnt. Later in the evening we all sat on the couch and watched some TV. Kellee and I ended up cuddling a lot that night. Looking back on it i think it pissed Sam off a little bit. Its not like i mean to "steal" her friend away or anything... and I'm not looking at dating Kellee. I'm just going thou really hard times right now, and having someone to hold and someone holding me just makes everything feel better for a short time. I know Kellee is ether gay or Bi, I'm not sure which. But i think she really likes it when I'm being my more "Female" self. I don't know.

Work today was good for the most part. Its end of quarter which means overtime... and i really could use the extra cash. I'm the first person to get trained into "shipments" so thats kind of cool.

Well thats all for now. Later people.